Bitch with a halo :) !!

Well hello ..
I did something really nasty and very bitchy today and i m immensely happy about it . Ahh Woh "DO PAL" ... Pure bliss ... OK now stop getting judgmental its perfectly normal to feel sadistic its humane.. Although i have no idea where this came from , my inner voice kept screaming to put my foot down .. sometimes you really need to be mean to make people realize that how they treat you is wrong - Bitchism as i fondly call it from today.

The thing about friends....even close friends(some) is the short-term memory they possess in certain things.. or rather, again the human tendency to forget things... favors in fact... and being the real life incarnation of Tulsi that you are... you won't even remind them! And that "favor" will be buried along with your grave!!

Ok agreed i have superhuman qualities (Mahaan) i exhibit.., always being there for others, even if it means missing your favorite movie , or getting closed to fired for not turning up at work cos ur friend is sick,fighting with others for them..or even encouraging them to go ahead to do something you really don't like n would hurt as hell just cos they are so excited about it n u see the gleam in their eyes .. Its not that i m expecting a golden globe for being a genuinely sweet person, nor am i expecting thank you or songs to be sung in my praises all over town.

Well all i want is to be remembered , is that too much of a bargain , well in 24hrs a day i ask a few mins to acknowledge the fact that i exist . i dont want a phone call once a year when you have some thing u need my help for .

I have always been this angel (20years of myself that i know of) . I never could say "NO", most friends of mine will vouch for that . Today . i acted like a bitch on purpose . though it felt good in a way, i am sure alot of them will be taken aback by my sudden change in behavior, But then towards the evening i felt really miserable for being some1 i m not.

A few days ago some1 called me a bitch "ouch it hurt like hell , but then these are the same people who tend to forget alot of things like simple texts , calls or even something as trivial as keeping up their word to deliver something THEY promised.These apologize at times so they r off my target. And then there are the others on list who wouldn't have thought to call and wish you happy birthday or happy new year but then call only for some favor . Y cant i just be a name of their orkutlist/facebook .. for others things i m practically non exist ant.. i Had to be Callous.. its not the i m a BITCH ..

Bitch. It's a very male-chauvinist word. I resented it deeply. A person who's a bitch would seem to be mean for no reason. I'm not a mean person. Maybe I'm rude without being aware of it - that's possible. I cant prolong my being mean and rude to anyone , cos most often i m those on purpose , I would cry my heart out for yelling at someone (secretly) .. a person like me definitely doesnt qualify to being bitchy.

And if i stand up for not being treated they way i want to and people want to call be a bitch so be it , I couldn't give a rat's tutu about the opinions ...
"I HAVE EMBRACED BITCHISM "

All said i m happy being Mahaan, at least i know i have absolutely no competition their - not many like me ;) !

WARNING : If i m being mean or nasty to u , first ask yourself Wat is it that u have done in the recent past to deserve my bitchism :D !!
PS : READ PREVIOUS BLOG FOR MY DEFINITION OF BITCHISM